It has been about seven months, since I wrote my last article. During this period, there have been quite a lot of changes going within me. This period of seven months was quite blissful, giving very productive results. I learned to prioritize my time properly. It takes quite some time for building up some good habits. The trips to Manassa water park, the Karwar trip and the heavenly trip of Coorg has certainly made me more affable and gregarious. I tried my hand at acting and dancing as well. I can vividly recall the night of my friend’s birthday party. I had partied and danced till my breath and my body allowed me. Lots of unprecedented things happened, which I will always relish.
I was on my way to the L&T Company, where I am currently undergoing my training. I was just pondering over the events that have made me what I am. Suddenly I realized that my bachelor life was about to be over. I will soon become an “engineer”, a respectable person in the society. Ever since I could remember, I was told, “ padh likh le. Bada aadmi ban ja. Saab tere ko abhishek babu bolenge.”(Read well, and become a respectable citizen of the society.) I always wanted to be rich but I never had the inclination towards studies. There have been numerous times, when I was reproached for not doing my studies properly. I was rebuked for not being sincere in my class. This punitive action, made me hate it even more. If I could recede, and change this one thing, I would love to do it, not just for the sake of it.
With the blink of an eye, twenty one years have passed. The time when my mother used to teach me A B C……., to the time when our professor taught us the technical aspects, it has been a long journey. For some, the journey has just begun. But for me, it is like an end of an era. But the problem is, I don’t want it to end so soon. I want to study more. I want to do my masters in management (read MBA), and go even to the doctorate level. If it were possible, that through out my life, my father could fund my education, and I just required doing my studies, I would surely grab this opportunity with both hands. But alas! I cannot keep living in an imaginary world of my own. I have to grow up. Sometimes I feel that though the physical transformation from a teenage boy to a man has been there, I still lack that mental growth, the one that comes with age. Quite often, I feel so happy, as if I am still in my childhood days, nothing to worry about, all the care taken by my parents.
But, with the advent of my earning days, times will change drastically. The whole process will again repeat itself. My father will take place of my grandfather, and my place will be taken by my child. The whole generation will take a leap forward. I will be supposed to act more responsibly, and work for an organization. I will have to take care of my family, my parents. Soon, I will have to sacrifice my wishes for my family, as my parents always did for me. But I used to be the one that gets everything!! How can this right be taken away from me suddenly? I wish I could capture time and hold it in my palm very tightly. I just wish, I could always enjoy life as I am doing now, always be youthful, and always have ample means to fulfill the unlimited desires of my heart.
Signing off
Abhishek
